Lover or Friend(s)?

How do you know "he's" the one?

Last night, talking to you I realized something... That I have been selfish!

Why is it that when it comes to love and friends, you often choose love? Do you love your friends less? Would they understand if you did not choose them? Is it saying that you are more inclined to forget your friends and concentrate on your loved one?

Priorities, priorities...

Where does it lie? If your best friend and you boyfriend/ girlfriend is drowning, who would you save first? When I was asked this question, I initially said I would save my bestfriend. Why? Because that time, my priority was keeping my bestfriend, and NOT starting a new life with my boyfriend. I realized, yes, my friends will always be there but at some point I have to start looking at my future. My friends will always be there, true, but they too will live the life they would like to have. And though you will always be friends, there will come a time when they won't be there for you. What do you do then? When you have to battle life alone. And yet somehow, the right person, the person you love and loves you will be there. Your better half, who will stick with you through thick and thin. Though mostly through "thick."

I was too busy being with my friends to realize that it's high time for me to get serious. Not to be in love with the idea of being in love but being in love with the person I hope to spend the rest of my remaining life with. True, that lovers come and go. But when you think about, every person you meet, you hope, pray and wish that this one, is "the" one. And somehow this makes it more worth the fighting, arguments and hurts, pains that you sometimes feel. If you believe and wish that this person you meet is the one, you work things out and better yourself not only for that person but because you want to be one.

And in the morning when I wake up, I think about you and how you make me feel... And I tell myself... life is more beautiful with you, with me.

to every season turn, turn, turn...

every story has an ending, and i guess the OSI bonding of Noel, Vhal and Sasa will now come to an end. i never really fully accepted the fact that you're leaving. i guess it's also my defense mechanism.

i hate goodbyes. i hate for the story to end. i hate the memories that you will leave our hearts. but most of all i hate the fact that you're leaving. more than anyone in this office, it will be the hardest for me. why? because like you there's only a few people i can lean on and for me.. your "the" one!

i hold back the tears now because i don't want to show you the fact that i am extremely sad that you're leaving. i wanted you to have a happy memory of me. just the way you remember me, a clown to everyone but himself. i hold back the tears because i fear that it won't stop when it begins. i hold back the tears beacause with it, i only feel more pain. though i hold back my tears, let it not mean that i do not feel. though i hold back my tears and a put a smile, i wish you well. and you know that i won't hold you back to whatever will make you happy. you tell me that you love me beh, i just want to let you know that if i had a choice between my life and yours.. i would pick you in a heartbeat.

let us cherish the times we spent together, as a family. let us dream about each others success. let us not fear of the ending of the story. let us hope that this is just another chapter in our lives. and then tomorrow as the new day comes, let us smile and say, today will be a better day because i know i can always count on my friends.  

Blabs 1.02

"I came here tonight because when you realize you want to spend the rest of your life with somebody, you want the rest of your life to begin as soon as possible. "